Where is the love?

few more days and it will be 2 month
without you my life is a piece of blank paper as blank as it can be
How many times that I have to say I Love You.
Anyway, I thank you for setting me free.
I am free now as so does you, but my heart is still with you.
How I wish you would come back to me
I know is impossible
but i rather love you a million times than hate you for 1 second
I have everything but yet not you
do you love me?
are you so keen on that?
I'm sorry to say this again.
I Love You
but it gives me heartache whenever i says that.

I wonder how is it going on for November KL trip, I hope you have fun with him.
Tons of assignment i have to finish and i took up Korean Language this few weeks, now i can write and speak korean.
쟈이 사랑해

Haunted by the Past

Can't sleep right now, i don't know why i still can't foget about her. I still think about her, arhh!!! this time the memories are back, how we meet and the things we did together. maybe I think too much or what, I told her once that I will love her forever and i would.
(song in the blog)
Recently get to know one Korean song 한국송 name 기다리다(GiDaRiDa) by 윤하(Younha), it speaks alot to my relationship with her. this is how the lyrics goes:

How is it that I've fallen in love with you

How can it hurt this much

Never before have I ever wanted someone this much

If I say I miss you about a thousand times, will it reach you

If I try crying and fussing, will you know my feelings?

Should I trying hating your name about ten thousand times

Shoud I just count the resentments

Although this love has already grown so much

Since you are not me, you probably don't feel the same

Yes, I was the one who liked you more than you liked me

Even if my feelings are hurt 9 times, I prefer smilling even just once

Since I'm happy by your sideI've never comfortably scowled in dislike even once

It was as if I could do anything you asked

Even if it's like a 1000 year long wait, I still prefer seeing you

One day, for one month, like that, one year

Though knowing you won't come, I keep turning aroundWaiting, waiting...

I fall asleep...

When will I be able to comfortably see you

When will I be able to discard all this desire

Because I want to know everything about you

Since when has it been living, hidden inside of me

Becoming a deeply embedded thorn that I simply can't remove

Even if my feelings are hurt 9 times, I prefer smilling even just once

Since I'm happy by your side

I've never comfortably scowled in dislike even once

It was as if I could do anything you asked

Even if it's like a 1000 year long wait, I still prefer seeing you

One day, for one month, like that, one year

Though knowing you won't come, I keep turning around

Waiting, waiting, I fall asleep...I'm saving it for you and can't give it to anyone else

For me, it's only you, if not you

I'm more comfortable alone, so like yesterday, here,

The one waiting and waiting... is me...

1 Month

It is exactly 1 month since I and her met, during this 1 month I have the urge to call her and text her but in the end i don't. I survive the first 1 month but there is many month and years to come, I hope that I can make it to the end.

I currently in CITC, if you know where is it. I felt so bored here and nothing to do, so i decided to blog. Later at 2pm i have class at DK Y and is drama!!! haih BORING....and English too BORING...!!!

and ya at 6.30pm i have korean class, hope it is fun...looking forward to it.

being single is fun but sometimes boring, sometimes lonely but sometimes feels great with friends. Recently i slept quite early, around 7pm until the next day 8pm is like 12 hours of sleep!!!

OK until now folks, i got to go.

Nothing

I felt like I'm nothing. I'm nothing indeed, I can't do anything good and haih..my life sucks. I'm sorry that i have offended somebody during this few days but I can't help it, I hope you can really understand and forgive me. you are my most prettiest sister ever don't angry me liao lar i know I'm wrong on that day. I felt worst, and worst each day and my heart is aching. who can help me? i can't run the day in this way for everyday and making people unhappy. I AM REALLY DOWN!!!!! ArHHHH!!!! HELP!!!!!! WANNA CRY!!!!! I know some of you feel that I "mei you yong" but haih i will try to get over it. i hope that people around me can cheer me up if not I'm really sorry that I either offend you or I will withdraw myself from everything. T.T

New Digi Number

Today i went and brought a new digi number just as i said in the previous post, what i am feeling now is lonely and empty. i miss her so much and i love her..yesterday i deleted all the msg she send to me and all the photos and songs that are related to her.

so tomorow i going to mail the OLD DIGI number back to her, by Pos Malaysia and end of case. I hope after that everything would be ok.

Choices of Life

She pick that guy out of me, so the relationship between me and her has ended after struggling for 2 years +.

she hurt me more than I hurt her,

she gave me the cold shoulder more than I could count,

she always give me those unnecessary reply,

she seldom interested in me.

I love her with all i could give,
I gave all my life and my health and wealth for her,
I always make sure she is happy and well cared,
I won't neglect her even I'm busy doing my work.


He study in SINGAPORE I study in KUALA LUMPUR,
He study ENGINEERING I study PUBLIC RELATION,
He is 19 and I am 18,
He drives a CAR and I don't HAVE ONE,
He is WEALTHY and I am POOR,
He got HER and I got NOTHING.


She says sorry to me,
I told her not to say so,
She ask me why,
I answered just tell me that you will be happy,
She says thank you with a smiley :-),
My heart is aching and i told her I Love Her Always.


All the little things I do for her only me and she will know, i beg all of you don't know how devoted I am to this relationship.


Tomorrow I'm going to change my DIGI number, only those who I care about gets the number. The reason i change is because the current number I'm using now is my birthday present from her.

2 subject and END

I still have 2 subject to go, which is this friday and next monday.
I'm worried about my result and i can't achive high,
I wanted to do all my best but i don't know wheather i have given my 100%.

Today i din't sms KY, yesterday i understand something and know sumthing.
I'm quite sad now and I just want to tell someone that no matter how you treat me
my love for you won't change and it will go on forever, I won't lie to you
just want to tell you I Love You very much.

I tried to foget about you and go on with my life but everytime I go to a place
or just past by a shop i would think of you and went into the shop n buy the best for you.
I'm willing to give my all to you, don't worry I will ensure you will fell "Xing Fu"
although i can't give you all you want because I'm just a Human.

LOVE from ME