Christmas is Round the Corner!!!

Yeah!!! is Christmas! i love Christmas the most haha maybe it makes me feel warm and joyous haha...
but in my heart is the same old sickness again coz i celebrate my Christmas with the "fellow" once and it makes me think of her haih....NVM
hmm if i have budget i will buy Christmas Present for all my friends keke and 1 special present for you know who....keke i dun wan to say...
recently thinking that i didn't contact with the "fellow" more than 2 months ady hmm..should i send a Christmas Card to her by pos? still wondering. pls vote ya. thx

Where is the love?

few more days and it will be 2 month
without you my life is a piece of blank paper as blank as it can be
How many times that I have to say I Love You.
Anyway, I thank you for setting me free.
I am free now as so does you, but my heart is still with you.
How I wish you would come back to me
I know is impossible
but i rather love you a million times than hate you for 1 second
I have everything but yet not you
do you love me?
are you so keen on that?
I'm sorry to say this again.
I Love You
but it gives me heartache whenever i says that.

I wonder how is it going on for November KL trip, I hope you have fun with him.
Tons of assignment i have to finish and i took up Korean Language this few weeks, now i can write and speak korean.
쟈이 사랑해

Haunted by the Past

Can't sleep right now, i don't know why i still can't foget about her. I still think about her, arhh!!! this time the memories are back, how we meet and the things we did together. maybe I think too much or what, I told her once that I will love her forever and i would.
(song in the blog)
Recently get to know one Korean song 한국송 name 기다리다(GiDaRiDa) by 윤하(Younha), it speaks alot to my relationship with her. this is how the lyrics goes:

How is it that I've fallen in love with you

How can it hurt this much

Never before have I ever wanted someone this much

If I say I miss you about a thousand times, will it reach you

If I try crying and fussing, will you know my feelings?

Should I trying hating your name about ten thousand times

Shoud I just count the resentments

Although this love has already grown so much

Since you are not me, you probably don't feel the same

Yes, I was the one who liked you more than you liked me

Even if my feelings are hurt 9 times, I prefer smilling even just once

Since I'm happy by your sideI've never comfortably scowled in dislike even once

It was as if I could do anything you asked

Even if it's like a 1000 year long wait, I still prefer seeing you

One day, for one month, like that, one year

Though knowing you won't come, I keep turning aroundWaiting, waiting...

I fall asleep...

When will I be able to comfortably see you

When will I be able to discard all this desire

Because I want to know everything about you

Since when has it been living, hidden inside of me

Becoming a deeply embedded thorn that I simply can't remove

Even if my feelings are hurt 9 times, I prefer smilling even just once

Since I'm happy by your side

I've never comfortably scowled in dislike even once

It was as if I could do anything you asked

Even if it's like a 1000 year long wait, I still prefer seeing you

One day, for one month, like that, one year

Though knowing you won't come, I keep turning around

Waiting, waiting, I fall asleep...I'm saving it for you and can't give it to anyone else

For me, it's only you, if not you

I'm more comfortable alone, so like yesterday, here,

The one waiting and waiting... is me...